Routine

Kind of crazy how much we thrive on routine isn't it? I think especially for those of us with children. They need it. And then in turn....we need it as well. Part of my morning routine for a long time now has been dropping the kids off at school and then heading over to my "running spot". Something that I try to do 3 times a week, if I can. I need it, and so does Jack. I have been babying myself the last two weeks. Afraid to do anything that is going to make me go back to feeling like I did almost 3 weeks ago. Still don't know what caused it, and it still isn't completely gone. And I hate babying myself. I'll baby anyone else in the world....just not me. So, today I turned the corner, so to speak. No more telling myself I shouldn't do something because I am afraid I will feel bad again. We are going to see a doctor in Chicago in a few weeks and I know I will get better answers then. And we are thinking it won't be a totally awful visit. Thinking whatever is going on is completely manageable, we just need to know what "it" is. So today I ran, probably too far, but it felt great to be out there. It's been two weeks and I need it (as do those around me!). I need it to make myself feel normal, feel healthy, feel like me. Jack needs it too, and he is laying next to me....feeling pretty good himself. Couldn't ask for a better running buddy....